Do you ever feel like you’re completely falling behind in life? I do on the daily. All I have to come home to after all of these shows are my two cats. There’s no guy waiting at home for me with dinner made or anything, just my cats. I’m 26 and still struggle to make rent every month. It’s not that I don’t have a good job, more that I can’t budget worth a damn and concerts mean more to me than bills. I often feel like I’m 26 with nothing to show for it. There are 23 year olds out there that have their shit much more together than I do. Then I have nights like last night.

The last time I saw Underoath was over ten years ago. My dad dropped some friends and I off at the Val Air Ballroom in Des Moines, Iowa for the show. I remember buying a t-shirt from the show. It had an astronaut on it and white writing outlined in green saying “Underoath” only it was split up as “Und-Ero-Ath”. To this day, my parents have no clue who Underoath is but if I say “Und-Ero-Ath” they know exactly who I’m talking about.

I remember being at that show and thinking that this is what I want to do for the rest of my life. I want to go to concerts. I want to be one of the people that makes this their world. Hell, it already was my world. Even at age 15, I was going to concerts almost every single night. I knew this was going to be my life. I just didn’t know how I was going to make it work.

Fast forward to last night. I had a coveted press pass attached to my guest list ticket. I pressed the sticker against my arm, pushed through the sold out crowd, and found myself in the area between the stage and the barrier that the crowd was behind. There were probably only four or five of us that had the coveted press pass. All of the other people had big, nice, fancy cameras but I just had my iPhone. This used to make me so nervous. I remember the first time I used one of these press passes and just wanted to cry because I felt like such a joke but I’ve gotten used to it now. I figure that I got this press pass for a reason so why let it go to waste just because I don’t have a fancy camera? Plus, I’ve always been a bit unconventional. The music started and I started taking as many pictures as I could with my crappy little phone. I took as many pictures as I could before the bodies started coming over the barrier. This was my cue to go and actually enjoy the show.

I walked towards the back of the venue and claimed my spot. I was finally able to sit back and enjoy the music instead of stressing out about the fact that I was taking pictures with my stupid little phone surrounded by professional photographers.

Underoath was playing two albums in their entirety back to back for their first tour in years. The first album they played was They’re Only Chasing Safety. This album is the album they were touring on the last time I saw them over ten years ago. I probably haven’t listened to it since then but somehow, as soon as I calmed down a bit and actually started listening to the music, every single lyric came rushing back to my mind. Each word Aaron Gillespie and Spencer Chamberlain sang made my eyes tear up just a little bit more. I couldn’t help myself and also can’t explain why I was all of a sudden ready to burst out in tears but hearing this album from front to back hit me right in the feels and I completely lost myself.

The music sounded just like my teenage years. The amount of energy these guys had on stage was amazing and it ended up being everything I wanted it to be. The crowd was going nuts. Even people standing in the back were shouting and jumping. People seemed more than appreciative that they had another chance to see this band live again. Underoath broke up years ago and just became another relic of people’s angsty teenage years. Last night woke up those feelings in more people that just me and you could tell. The emotion in the crowd was ridiculous. Even if you weren’t a huge Underoath fan, you could just feel the energy of the room. Some people, like myself, were too emotional to deal and had tears rolling down their cheeks. Other people made their way to the pit and started moshing harder than I have ever seen before. Last night was probably the first show in a long time where the bars were almost empty due to people not wanting to lose their spots and people not willing to sacrifice a single moment of this show.

I didn’t really pay attention to the second album to be honest. I really only liked They’re Only Chasing Safety and the amount of emotion going through me after that was done was more than enough to make me exhausted and left me feeling completely overwhelmed. I stayed for a couple of songs and just took it all in.

Before I left the show, I looked up towards the stage and where I had been standing for the first songs.

I’m 26. I’m not married, not even dating and instead of kids, I have cats. I can barely make my rent every month and I do not have my shit together in any way shape or form. Over ten years ago, I stood in front of a stage watching this same band, listening to the same songs, and promised myself I would turn this into my life.

Last night was night five of a eight night concert bender where I was guest listed for majority of the shows. Strangers come up to me on a nightly basis and tell me that they enjoy my blog. Walking around the show last night, I bumped into some really notable people in the local music scene who stopped me just to say hi to me. I was one of five people who got a press pass for the show.

I made a promise to myself over ten years ago that I would become something in the music scene. Last night I finally realized that I have done just that and more.

Line Up:




Venue: Skyway Theatre

Sausage Fest Meter- 6 out of 10

Average Age of the Crowd- 26

Crowd Surfers- Didn’t Keep Track

Stage Divers- None

Moshing Level- Heavy

Broken Bones- None That I Saw

Drunkards Taken Out By Security- None

Spotted Flying Through the Crowd- Bodies, Cups, Ice

Celebrity Sightings- Bobby of Leo Presents; Tony, Josh, and Ross– all amazing sound guys!

Overall Score- 10 out of 10

Show on Deck- Ra Ra Riot/ And The Kids/ Pwr Bttm