As the band walked off stage on Friday night, the LCD screens that served as the backdrop while the band played turned into a memorial of sorts. There was an upside down cross made of flowers in the middle and then the text “2000-2018” under it. The feedback from the guitars and microphones that laid across the stage made a sort of ticking noise like a clock. I reluctantly walked away from the stage with tears rolling down my cheeks.

Brand New is a band that has truly changed my life. They saved me when I needed to be saved. They kept me grounded when I felt like my life was out of control. They were there when no one else was. It’s always been Brand New. No matter what’s going on in my life, there’s a Brand New song to match it.

Theses guys have a song (Soco Amaretto Lime) that has this beautiful line in it… “I’m gonna stay eighteen forever”. The rumors started flying a couple of months ago and just a few weeks ago, singer (and my biggest celebrity crush on the planet) Jesse Lacey, announce that it is true.  Just like the song says, it seems like Brand New is going to stay eighteen forever and break up in 2018 (they formed in 2000). It’s poetic. It breaks my heart because I have a feeling they’re serious about it but it’s that beautiful kind of heart break.

Once the rumors started flying that these guys won’t be a band for much longer I started studying their tour routes. They weren’t coming to Minnesota so obviously I would have to travel. They really weren’t coming anywhere near Minnesota on their current tour with Modest Mouse so I had to get a bit creative.

Bonner Springs, Kansas. That’s where I ended up. I had never been there before. Thankfully, I had a college buddy that was from the area and had recently moved back home. Great! I could kill two birds with one stone. I would get to see Brand New yet again and get to see my good pal Brady. I thought it would be fine, great, whatever but it ended up being so much more than that.

Sure, I’ve cried at every single Brand New show I’ve been at. Their music really just touches me that much. The tears last night were far different than the ones at the previous shows. I think that knowing there is now an expiration date on the life of my favorite band changed everything. Every single moment of their set on Friday night meant absolutely everything to me. I was trying to take in every lyric, every smell, every beat, everything. I wanted Friday night to be a show that I remember for the rest of my life and it truly will be.

I was hit so hard in the feels on Friday night. It’s almost as if Jesse Lacey (the incredibly gorgeous singer) wrote the set list with me in mind. They played every song I wanted them to play including “Sit Transit Gloria… Glory Fades” which I had never seen them play live before. When they started playing “Play Crack The Sky” is when I just absolutely lost it. I dropped my half drank beer on the ground and broke down. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen or heard. Here I was in a town that I had never been to before, surrounded by thousands of people that had no idea who I was, watching a band that had truly changed my life.

I don’t know what else to say about the show last night. I went, I cried, I smiled, I screamed, I cried some more, and then I left and will soon be lost in a world of back to back concerts that truly mean nothing to me in the grand scheme of things. That’s not to say that I don’t love all of the shows I go to but after last night, I don’t think shows will be the same for me. It just had such an impact and had me feeling so many things that I had never felt before.

I drove eight hours to see Brand New play a show.

I’m broke, I’m exhausted, and I’m completely behind on work.

I spent the last twenty-four hours laughing, crying, puking, smiling, and truly just loving the fact that I live a life that allows me to do impulsive trips like this. I love the fact that I have friends that will let me crash on their couch (or in my own freaking bed! Thanks Brady!), go to these shows, and let me be the emotional idiot that can’t handle their liquor that I am.

My heart breaks a little bit more with every day that passes knowing that I am one day closer to the end of my favorite band.

Brand New is breaking up in less than two years now and there’s nothing I can do about it.

Line Up:

Modest Mouse

Brand New

Venue: Providence Medical Center Amphitheater- Bonner Springs, Kansas

Sausage Fest Meter-  4 out of 10

Average Age of the Crowd- 25

Crowd Surfers- Didn’t Pay Attention

Stage Divers- None

Moshability- High

Broken Bones- None

Drunkards Taken Out By Security- None

Celebrity Sightings- None

Shoutout- Brady- Thank you so much for hosting me this weekend, introducing me to your friends, and showing me around Kansas. You are truly an amazing person!

Overall Score- 13 out of 10

Show on Deck- Let me recover from this one for a few days please!